There's No Crying in Baseball

Yesterday was my 2nd foray into the murky, sweaty world of hot yoga. I went after work to the 6pm class. Let me tell you, there is a world of difference between the Sunday morning hot yoga crowd, and the Tuesday evening hot yoga crowd. Most notably a difference in SMELLINESS. I walked in the door and the whole place stunk of feet - gross!!! But never one to wimp out over bad smells (lest we forget jiu jitsu often involves rolling around on the floor with boys who haven't yet discovered the magic of LAUNDRY) I persevered to the sweaty, sweaty end. I sweat so much my fingers pruned up and I had a pretty solid dehydration headache this morning.

On the up side though, you feel like a rockstar afterwards and I already notice a change in my flexibility.

Tonight is jiu jitsu (BJJ). I have to keep telling myself that the saying  "if you want to get really good at jiu jitsu, you have to do jiu jitsu" (or something like that) is true and I need to live by it. I can't remember who said it but they were probably really really good at jiu jitsu. I'm quite truly, honestly, frustrated with BJJ at the moment though. There's a lot of pressure that comes with slapping on a blue belt when you no longer feel like one. For those of you that don't know, the gym I train at expanded a LOT while I was globetrotting last year. There are so many new faces I have no hope of remembering everyone's name any time soon (although bizarrely, many of these people know MY name...which makes me feel like a) a celebrity and b) a jerk). One of the issues for me is that when people of a lower belt rank see you as a higher belt, and you roll with them, they expect something from you. A good fight, a challenge, to be taken to the cleaners, or all of the above. I'm not capable of giving that something right now and it's embarrassing and makes me not want to roll at all. I need to get over this immediately because the only way to get good at jiu jitsu is (say it with me)....to do jiu jitsu.

So tonight, I will hang up my sissy pants and get in some rolling. The extra weight I'm carrying around makes my stamina considerably less right now, but I hereby declare that tonight will be a night of hard rolling and not wussing out. I will have my face smushed into the mat. I will get choked/armbarred/footlocked and probably all three. AND I WILL LOVE IT AND ASK FOR MORE.

I'M GOING TO DO SOME FREAKIN' JIU JITSU.

Peace :)