Today, after years of mocking the self-indulgence of blogging/bloggers, I'm one of those assholes.
I haven't entirely figured out yet why I'm doing this. What I do know is that I seem to have all these big ideas lately about stuff I want to do, and that these ideas mostly begin and end somewhere in my head. I guess the rationale for this blog is that if I commit a slice of my life to the interwebs, I will at least feel a sense of shame (and who doesn't respond well to shame?) if I don't follow through with things. Even the illusion of having people read this (quite possibly in the absence of any actual readers) will supposedly help. Since I've spent a stupid amount of time feeding the procrastinasaurus on here lately anyway (Stumbleupon.com....holy shit it's a time warp do not go there if you value your time), I'm going to try to be useful with it.
So why should you read this? I don't have a good answer for that. Like I said, I find blogging a pretty self-indulgent exercise. I'm not qualified in any particular way that makes my musings more interesting/thought provoking than anyone else's; I'm just some girl trying new things. Maybe you're voyeuristic (creepy?) enough to find that enticing. Maybe I just forgot to return your phone call and you are wondering if I am still alive.
I'm a 25 year old girl of the ginger variety, and I live in Toronto. I'm a new graduate student hoping to stumble my way towards a Ph.D. in pharmacology sometime this century. I've had a total life upheaval in the recent past. Last year I quit my job to spend a year traveling, and I have now returned home to life as a student; not because I'm a masochist who doesn't like having money or that I crave letters after my name, but because I'm now doing some research I'm really excited about and challenged by. Nowadays, I just got dumped by someone not-so-insignificant to me who I thought (rather deludedly) was going to be around for a very long time. While this hurts like a bitch, I'm refusing to wallow in a tub full of my own pathetic-ness (nooo no, this blog will not be a pity party). Instead, I'm going to use this time and opportunity to get ideas out of my head and get awesome.
For now, the big idea is that I want my pre-traveling body back. I want to compete in jiu jitsu competitions again. I want to be able to say when I'm really old that at least at one time, I could see my abs. I want to be able to do some freaking chin-ups! So for the time being I guess, this blog will be about that. There - committed. Take that.
First, some playground rules:
- I am not a writer. This is a blog, not my thesis, so grammar police - put down your pitchforks. Sometimes I'm a little liberal with the semi-colons.
- If you think there's a good chance we interact enough for you to make an appearance in the occasional posting, you are welcome to pick your own nickname. If you don't, you might end up with one that's unflattering because I'm not that creative. For example, if we recently had a bonding moment over cheeseburgers, I might just refer to you as "Cheeseburger". You'd probably prefer to be called something like "Handsome Stud" or "Warrior Princess"
- No Negative Nancy's please. If you have shitty mean things to say, keep them to yourself.
I have some pretty high hopes of success at the moment. I have a good running start. I'm in a better place emotionally than I have been in more years than I care to remember. I've lost a significant amount of weight before, so odds are good I can do it again. My eating habits aren't terrible. Life as a grad student is pretty flexible (at least for me - I got really lucky and I know that). I live in a house with friends who make me laugh (my appreciation of this post-breakup CANNOT be expressed enough).
So here goes! Today's adventure is Hot Yoga. While the idea of doing exercise in a boiling hot room in air saturated with other people's sweat does not sound appealing (or sanitary) in theory, I have it on good authority that it's great and I will love it. So this fine November Sunday I am going to drag my cold ass out of the house to sweat it out with some other sweaty folks.
Stay tuned....
:)
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